Some realizations are slow, some are quick, some are pleasant and some smack you on the forehead like a mallet. Sometimes you really are the hammer, sometimes you really are the nail.
The last week I was the nail.
After Gabriel was born I didn't lose weight and was frustrated, turned out it was beyond my control, got my health figured out and started to lose weight just in time to get pregnant again. After Aoife I have tried a few times to lose weight but never with a lot of dedication. There was always an excuse to have a treat...birthdays, long runs, movie dates...surviving Tuesday (okay that one was weak but I used it). The justification was that I was being a role model by being active. Sure I was not the ideal weight but my kids saw me moving and that had to make up for a lot right? And yes it does, it is great that my kids "train" all the time. They run, bike, swim, join me with my personal trainer, and they just move ALL THE TIME! It's awesome.
Last week it hit me that it does no good to be an active role model if I am not here! I need to get to a healthy weight not because I don't want my kids to see me as fat but simply because I want them to see me.
It's that simple, I want to be here.
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